I miss my old house so much it makes me want to beat my brains out and kill myself. I'm so alone.?

It's understandable to miss your old home, but keep in mind that now you can start new fresh memories where you are living now. We all have to move onto new places some day or the other, I am currently living in an apartment with my boyfriend, there are times where I miss my old home that I lived in for all my life. I miss certain memories of being there, but I am also creating NEW, fresh memories and beginning a new life. So try to do the same :) Keep your chin up.